i actually got them last night at midnight but yeah
i thought i done better but still it could’ve been worse:
english-B (WTF i was amazing at english :S)
maths-B (i was surprised because that was a solid exam)
physics-B (this was actually one of my easier exams as well :/)
well it’s been anout a month late but i still want to blog about my time in HK
it was really nice, the entire trip ^^ it helped with a lot of things.
i saw my grandad buried away for the last time in this tombstone place. but everytime i go to hk, i’ll be sure to umm visit it? idk what you’re supposed to do.
but yeah, idk why but a lot of family are like a little scared since my grandad passed away. everyone’s superstitious but i mean, even if you do believe in ghosts, why would my grandad ever haunt us? xD
i truly love my grandad & i miss him so much.
anyway on a lighter note, in HK, i got to see my cousin (well one of my closest cousins) he’s like 13 now & he seemes so much more mature. like older than me xD maybe cos i’m childish. but yeah he’s amazing at piano & it does amaze me ^^ tbh it’s driven me to start learning myself. we did a lot together. i think i spent most of the time at his house. his dad(my uncle) is really rich so his house is really nice and all. but it does get a little boring there.
i also stayed at my other uncle’s appartment/flat but it’s right next to the shopping mall so i prefer it there. the mall is really giant & i just love going through it. umm yeah i didn’t much much tbh but i still spent like $5000 (hk dollars) mainly on food and souvenirs i think.
ermmm yeah i went out almost everyday & tbh it was really fun! the entire trip was amazing! i went to places like cool arcades & these malls filled with small shops that sell really neat things. i should’ve taken more photos but oh well ><
how could i forget?! being in hk for almost a month, i realised most of the pop music was k-pop and it’s really popular in hk. i watched this drama called dream high where it’s all about a performing arts school & becoming a k-pop star! it was sooo good & i bought a few songs from the sound track xD
also got a korean haircut ;P it looked awesome but i couldn’t imitate it at all. maybe if i put in some time to try a few more times but i’m too lazy :/
well that’s all i can think of & tbh this is a rushed post because i’ve left it so late :/ until next time…
i wanted to type this ealier but i was lazy
sorry for all the emo posts before but i was really upset but i’m better now
it’s still feels weird & i feel sad but it can’t be helped.
anyways i did a lot in HK including burying my grandad’s ashes at this graveyard place. it wasn’t that freaky tbh & it was just a little sad…
my grandad’s ashes was put in this jar thing (if your chinese, you’ll know) and sealed up behind bars… but the thing i didn’t like was that all the jars in the area were the same.
i mean, does that mean my grandad is no more important than those before him D: i mean sure he’s the most important to me… but it just gets me to think:
what if i’m someone not worth mentioning?
sometimes i wish i was really good at something, like really good. cos i’d say i’m very average, in terms of athletic abilities, musically & school-based. my “skills” are too widespread that i can’t focus on one thing… i just want to be someone that would be remembered as someone significant :/ even for going into uni or whatever, i don’t know what course i want to do b/c there’s nothing i like/hate in particular. i’m just so messed up!
i’m gonna have to postpone my blogging cos i’m lazy af
wow i’ve been away for like a whole month!
i have lots to write about & i think i’ll write it in parts…
but i have pokemon white 2 to play now so i’ll blog later… -.-
i’m going to hong kong today…taking my grandad’s ashes to bury there.
i’m not feeling all that excited like normally.
gotta say goodbye to my tennis coach as well, i hope he’s there.
i’ll not see him again after this :(
grandad…you’ve been gone for just under a week & i can’t believe it.
i’m really lost at the moment, i’m feeling a mix of emotions…sad, angry, regret, feeling of loss and so on.
today was the funeral & wow was it depressing af… quite a few people showed up but not too many. my mom, auntie & uncle each gave a very emotional speech/ words of respect. everyone was crying around me…but i managed to hold back any tears. i kinda blanked out, still feeling overwhelmed by this.
but i finally came to accept your death when i gave my final words to you. i didn’t have a speech prepared & it all came from my heart. i truely miss you & i don’t know what to do now. i usually just cry at night when no one can see me like that. since everyone’s worried about me… i can’t let people deal with more problems.
grandad you were really the best & i meant every word i said today. goodbye my grandad <3 i won’t ever get over this, but maybe we’ll somehow meet again…like in the afterlife?
so i finally got to see my grandad today… i still wished this was just a nightmare but it was reality. i saw him, laying in his coffin, lifeless and pale. everyone was crying, even my uncles who i’ve never seen crying before. but i didn’t cry… i don’t know why, maybe i just can’t.
i’ve cried so much since i found out he passed away & i’m completely devastated. i’ve not really talked to anyone since, i just want to be alone. just looking at my grandad today emotionally scarred me. i can’t believe that he’s gone. i’m so sad.
even though everyone’s telling me to move on & act mature, i just can’t. i lost someone who i could always count on. i could talk to him whenever i felt sad, happy, angry, anything… i miss him so much but at least i got to see him one last time. i didn’t really say anything b/c i really don’t know what to say. i just said my goodbyes and smiled at him one last time. tears were flooding out but i tried to hold them in.
this really is goodbye…but grandad, i love you forever & i’ll never ever stop thinking about you. i’m sure we’ll meet again… rest in peace grandad <3
i had the worst day ever yesterday… it was supposed to be a happy day since all my exams were finished.
but no, i can’t put into words how sad it was. my grandad died. i feel hurt all over & i don’t feel like doing anything now. i can’t believe i’ll never see him again. i can’t believe he’s actually gone…
he meant so much to me & i don’t know how i’m ever going to get over this… i don’t think i can. i cried so much my eyes hurt but i can’t stop. i miss you grandad…come back
my grandad is actually dying…i shouldn’t have found out but i did.
i think my mom etc tried to hide it from me until “after the exams”.
right now i’m just devastated. i don’t feel like talking or anything. just need to let it all out…